Sunday, April 18, 2004
Getting ready for church because—
I'M OFF BED REST!
I'm a little frightened. I feel somehow that I'm losing control. I've been in bed for 30 weeks. It's all I know.
Been contracting a bit this morning.
I should be ecstatic.
But I don't know how to feel.
Most of this ordeal has taken a certain level of psychic numbing. Now I'm supposed to feel something?
Maybe my emotional functioning will be like my digestive system after TPN: sluggish for a couple of weeks before kicking back in.
I have to go now.
It's time to pick up my mat and walk.
